Saturday, May 25th 2024

A devastating news from home has reached me. I was heartbroken. I could not sleep last night thinking of what happened. Once again, I find myself wishing I was a child again. We were children again. Innocent, happy children.  I started to reflect. My emotions swell up and I wish I didn't feel so deeply.

In the morning, I woke up still feeling heavy from the emotions of the night before so I stayed in bed all day although I could not sleep. I numbed my feelings with mindless Netflix series until I was bedsore. I didn’t even notice it was raining outside. I decided to clean so at least I’ll feel better. Cleaning is one of my ways to cope. I went outside to buy a Domex. Walking in the rain to the grocery store has, somehow, helped me gain perspective. Besides, they always say walking can help you sort out your mind. But in my mind, if I clean tonight, at least I’d wake up to a clean apartment on a Sunday morning.